There is a space where I don't worry
I woke up this morning not remembering my dreams but with a feeling of complete peace.
I did not worry about anything. I did not need anything or even anyone. I could find everything I needed inside myself.
Then I observed my senses awakening. I felt like drinking a coffee (which I decided to stop, again). I started worrying about an email about sending the info by a limit date to get a French health insurance card. I started to think about packing for my next trip tomorrow… Then I took my phone and started seeing questions on What’sApp and more things to think about. There is this friend I need to talk to, etc etc.
It is so easy to leave and forget the space I was in the dreams. A space where I do not worry about anything nor have any needs.
The key seems to being able to maintain that state at all times.
I could become a monk or I could just remember that most things I tend to worry about are just temporary and not worth worrying about.
I just think about these Afghans forced to leave their country if they can, some packed like cattle in a US Army plane and others about to die falling off of the gear when the plane took-off. How can I worry about anything compared to what they’re living and how much suffering there is in the world.
Not worrying is a daily practice. Not even about death.